Two Wednesdays ago (9/5/11) we had our Young Adults Discipleship Group (our youth group) as we do every Wednesday at our house. This day was special though, we had a guest speaker. Ryan Fast is a full time missionary for an organization for Teen Missions International (TMI). The reason we know him is because he was the leader of the team Cori went on several years ago. Him and his family (see right) came over for dinner that night, and Ryan started sharing about some of the kids he got to encounter on the trip he went on this year. One of the kids he talked about was named Colton. You see Colton was on this mission trip, but refused to become a Christian because he knew in his heart he wasn't ready to give Christ 100%. That really struck me hard. I have never given 100% to Christ, and I call myself a Christian.
This is where God showed me the problem with my life.
As Ryan was speaking later that night, he was talking about Jesus disciples, and how they were called to go. Then God told me "Go." My Creator gave me a command. I had to go. God needed me to go somewhere.
This is where God gave me the purpose to my life.
After that through the rest of the night I grabbed the TMI flier and just started flipping through reading about all the teams. Now since I new I needed to go somewhere, I looked at all of the countries I had a desire to go to. Then I read the Zambia trip description. That's when I started shaking and felt really strongly called to go to Africa. For all my life, Africa is the last place I have ever wanted to go. Now God has given me a desire to go there. In the intro to a book my mom is reading it says this:
"For as long as I can remember, one of my favorite Bible verses has been Psalm 37:4: 'Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." I used to believe it meant that if I did what the Lord asked of me, Followed His commandments, and was a "good girl," He would grant all my desires and make my dreams come true. Today, this is still one of my favorite passages of Scripture, but I have learned to interpret it in a totally different way. It is not about God making my dreams come true but about God changing my dreams into His dreams for my life."
This is were God changed my desires, to His desires.
The final thing that happened was I was looking through the other Africa based teams, and I saw the Cameroon team. This team is the foot washing team. You go with next to nothing, and you help African children.
This is where God told me he wanted to break me.
He wanted me to have nothing. He wanted to destroy this life I know and love. This was the point where got wrecked my life, and I am so thankful He did. As of a week ago today, I am going with TMI to (most likely) Cameroon. I am going with next to nothing to wash kids feet, and give them their first pair of shoes. This is what God has called me to. Please pray that I am able to get the funding necessary for me to go on this trip, and also that I would stay in his will through the rest of this up coming year.
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